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Dancer in the Mirror

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For years, I’d walk my dogs at a local park. Nearly every night, we’d pass a recreation room where there was a Latin dance aerobics class, and I’d watch from a distance. I didn’t want to invite the humiliation of being a morbidly obese woman watching people exercise. I had been ridiculed in public before. In the mirrors, I saw reflections of people sweating unselfconsciously and dancing riotously. I also saw a shadow in a corner: me, watching them. They didn’t seem imprisoned in their bodies. Their bodies seemed like places of comfort and ease rather than repositories of shame

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