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All I’ve Ever Wanted

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I have been maintaining an abstinent weight of 125 pounds (57 kg) since September 2015. My early life was what I’d call a perfect breeding ground for addiction: I grew up in an alcoholic home full of insanity, loud arguments that got my heart pounding, shame, abandonment, and no talk of a Higher Power at all. I remained hyper vigilant, turning into my own little God of my life, always needing to be in control to feel safe. Fast-forward to puberty, when looks were what made you or broke you among your peers. I believed if I achieved an “A” in

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