Spirituality Want List By admin Posted on February 15, 2016 2 min read 1 Share on Facebook Share on Twitter Share on Google+ Share on Reddit Share on Pinterest Share on Linkedin Share on Tumblr Food tortured me from youth until I was 73 years old. It took me thirty years to make Step One. One day, three different Twelve Step friends suggested I write what I wanted from OA. Three different people on the same day? Sounds like a message from my Higher Power, whom I call Beloved. Here is what I wrote: I want even more love from you, my Beloved, more confidence, more trust, and reliance; I want you to initiate my recovery, as you always do. I want to rely on you and not my pride; I want to reach instinctively to humility and not to pride or self-hate, the roots of my white-knuckling. I want your will. I want to share my experience, strength, and hope. I want OA friends and an end to isolation. I want to awaken to our love. More than anything I want you, my Beloved. You are the desire of my heart. I want every barrier between us removed. All these desires of my heart, I know you will give me. They are your desires as much as mine. Not long after writing this list I had a spiritual awakening, which has given me recovery. — Karl Y.