Relapse Ending the Residual Battle The knowledge of Step One is that I am truly powerless over food. To admit this deeply within myself took three years! In my yoga class, I learned not to use my momentum to force a pose. Instead, I learned to take my time and build a strong foundation, grow into the pose up to my maximum ability, and then … Read More
Fellowship Our Small But Mighty IDEA Our IDEA celebration last year was a small but mighty gathering of recovering compulsive eaters, both newcomers and long timers. At 11:30 a.m. PST, we stood in a circle and turned to the person next to us, held his or her hand, and said, “I put my hand in yours, and together we can do what we could never do … Read More
Relapse & Recovery Surrender for Freedom I felt fat from the time I was in kindergarten. Though only slightly heavier than other girls, I was obsessed with my size. I always daydreamed of returning from summer vacation magically thin, suddenly popular, and beloved. As my disease progressed, it morphed through an all-consuming cycle of binge eating, dieting, and exercise bulimia—of self-loathing and self-punishment. After ten years … Read More
Abstinence Suggestions for Abstinence Abstinence Actions These actions helped us become abstinent and stay abstinent. Maybe they will work for you too. • Accept your humanness, and let go of striving for perfection. • Ask another member to sponsor you, and call your sponsor every day. • Ask your HP for help whenever you need it. • At meetings, express your gratitude to your … Read More
Recovery Around the World Virtual Help I found OA through an email loop. The loop showed me what OA was like and gave me hope and strength. After a month of email loop meetings, I went to my first live virtual meeting, a voice chat about Step One. There, I received my miracle. With an open mind, I accepted Step One and began abstaining from binge … Read More
Anorexia & Bulimia Don’t Do It Alone I am a lifer. My disease is such that I can never leave OA. I spent a lifetime struggling to control my food and body, and the result was a soul-wrenching desperation to find another way. My disease takes a form I call “classic bulimia.” I binged until it hurt, threw up, and then binged again. It wasn’t always end-on-end … Read More
Service Hope in Writing I love our literature. Thank God for all the many members who have taken time over the years to share their experience, strength, and hope in writing, giving our Fellowship this rich resource. By the grace of God, I’ve now been abstinent for two and a half years, the longest period in my history of recurring relapse. I attribute my … Read More
Working the Program Safe Deposit Restaurant meals can be unmanageable even when I order abstinent food. Portions are huge, with side dishes often comprised of multiple carbohydrates. Good self-care requires that I ask for substitutions, so I do. And I always ask servers to bring a take-home box to me along with the food I order. I often have to restate this request again when … Read More
Newcomers Even Before When I first joined OA and wasn’t getting abstinent, I came across “Pray Then Act” (Lifeline, March 2015, p. 16), a story about a person who experienced a sudden, intense obsession to stop for food at a drive-through. She immediately called her sponsor, who said, “You can have it tomorrow.” This advice drove home in a very real way the OA principle … Read More
Higher Power Perseverance, Even When When I got into program, I weighed about 240 pounds (109 kg), well over my target weight of 190 pounds (86 kg). I was bingeing and drinking too much alcohol, plus I was mildly depressed. I thought my spiritual life was okay, but really it was a cycle of small peaks and deep valleys. I’d get some abstinence, but then … Read More
