In recovery, I have freedom from: pretending to be a normal eater and wishing people would just go away so I could eat using all celebrations as an excuse to binge eating secretly as I baked, prepared, and served food—and continuing to eat long afterward squeezing into only a few select pieces of clothing (usually with elasticized waistbands) making commitments I could not keep trying to force myself to be good enough to deserve the God of my childhood, but feeling over and over that I’d failed him eating food just to please people trying to be perfect and never

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