Higher Power Perfect Understanding By admin Posted on September 21, 2016 4 min read 0 Share on Facebook Share on Twitter Share on Google+ Share on Reddit Share on Pinterest Share on Linkedin Share on Tumblr To see where I am and how I got here, I must look into the past, where the God of my understanding put people, places, and situations in my path. Perhaps he was using the Tool of anonymity when he made me trip over coincidences to get me into recovery. I had a chance to try another way of living because of his love and mercy for me. I could have brushed off that gal, an OA member, who broke her anonymity to tell me about this Twelve Step program, but I didn’t. I could have walked out of that first meeting never to return, but I didn’t. I could have kept up my compulsive eating and my lies to others and myself about my abstinence, but I didn’t. Something or someone was leading me and guiding me, and I didn’t even know it. Today I don’t believe in coincidences. I know that the hand of God plays a part in all I am. As long as I remain willing to believe that a Power greater than myself empowers me to keep on keeping on, then I progress toward “a life of sane and happy usefulness” (Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th ed., p. 130). I used to take pleasure in telling everyone I was a perfectionist, but today, as long as my life is involved with other people, places, and situations, the idea of being perfect will drive me back to the food. The God of my understanding wants me to involve myself with others, so I must accept them as I accept myself. Perhaps in the eyes of God I am perfect. At some point, I began using food because I thought situations prevented me from being perfect or because I didn’t get my way—so, I thought, my life was defective and imperfect! For today, it is what it is. Life is good. People are a necessity in my life, and I am willing to accept all as it is supposed to be at this moment. How sad it would be to always be waiting for the perfect moment to get abstinent, the perfect friend, the perfect family, the perfect job, the perfect mate and, for me, the perfect meal. I have come to believe everyone has flaws, but thanks to this program, I can release my defective ways to the God of my understanding and mend my ways back into recovery. — Anonymous
