A Lot to Do in Sixty Seconds

I see that I have been going through the motions, paying lip service to the program and making contact with HP in a superficial way. When I ask, “What is distracting me?” I am thankful for the awareness God gives me. The answer? “Nothing!” In this moment, I realize that what I have been labeling “worldly distractions” is actually me distracting myself.

I hear a robotic voice in my head say, “In sixty seconds, you will self-destruct.”

I am grateful for those sixty seconds! An OA member can do a lot in that amount of time. I can be really honest about what is going on (Step One). I can know in my heart that my self will isn’t enough to battle the addiction (Step Two). I can give myself over to the God of my understanding, turning my life over and asking for help (Step Three).

I can use one or all of the Tools:

• Literature by opening up an OA daily reader that, today, tells me of both the need to set aside time each day to gain more self-awareness and the importance of taking and continuing to take Step Three to gain freedom from the disease.
• Writing by putting my thoughts down on paper.
• Service by sharing my experience, strength, and hope.

And I can reach out to someone in this marvelous Fellowship where we all understand and still love each other and support each other unconditionally. Thank you for being here to listen.

The clock has stopped ticking. I am back into emotional and spiritual recovery, one second, one minute, one day at a time.

— K